wht did i ever do to deserve any of this.........

these days any negative or sad thought kinda sends a roller coaster effect...  everything then comes back again n again..
Job
Friendship
family
love
everything so screwd up....  fuck man.. look at tht list.. wht else is left in life..  whtever i may have been i bloody well know i did not deserve this..  a "best" friend who doesnt give anymore coz she doesnt "expect". You have to be fucking understanding to everybody inspite of the fact tht u r tryin to cope up wid a broken heart, no proper job and dead father!!!

If you r thinking wht is makin me say all this right now, well...  our juniors gave a farewell today.. my farewell and i just cant be thr..  man.. wht wud i have not given to just be thr today... yeah then it went to my job front and then strtd thinkin abt you know who.. and then abt shrr..

wht wud i not give to go to a NORMAL mba college with nice good friends get a nice job thru campus lead an INDEPENDENT life of my own...

The biggest part is tht everybody just looks down at you when u r just tryin to vent your frustration sayin "dude dont make a fuss.". "whts the big deal!!" and its all your fault.. u shud have done this and tht....  tlk all ideal situation stuff with high morals...   i just have to act sad n understanding n i dunno wht else to have their support.. ppl have a habit of sayin exactly the opposite of wht u said.. so they can just say SOMETHING ATLEAST....

GODDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!  just wht the hell did i do to deserve this just tell me tht.... just go to hell...